I am currently sitting on the puffy cushion of a wicker sofa on the balcony of a condo overlooking the pool at the Cloister at SeaIsland. The condo, like the rest of the property, has been decorated in an unusually tasteful style. I have heard that the condos run around $1100/night. I sit here with no make-up on, in a short cotton nightie typing away on my laptop with a glass of very expensive French wine in my hand. The property is peppered with large live oaks that are regally adorned with Spanish moss, and the air smells strongly of the Confedeate jasmine and magnolias blooming in the abundance of fertility that seems to characterize so much about “The South.” The Atlantic ocean is just a stone’s throw away. These are the moments I live for. These are the moments that make me stay.
I suppose that in modern society one’s job and one’s relationships often swap roles. One can be in a job/relationship that one has fundamentally outgrown, but there are such moments of absolute divinity that make you stay. This job has its serious downs. Living on a bus and waking up to a festival with no running water and nothing but port-a-toilets for amenities is the other side of the coin. But on nights like this: a night where the air is lovely, warm, and moist, and scented of jasmine, and the villas are spacious and beautiful, and the wine is extremely fine and French, and I sit alone on a sofa on my private balcony that is larger than my kitchen at home listening to the ocean. These nights, these moments make so much of it worth while.
I am trying so hard to save these sparkly glowing moments. To encase them in my memory and love them for the moments that they are without weighing them down with needing them to continue.
“Everything that’s good about now, I don’t wish for it to last…” -Beth Orton
Part of me wants life to always be like this. Part of me is wise enough to know that if it were, I probably would not appreciate nor enjoy it as much as I do now. The whole loving each moment for the moment and then letting it go is not the easiest mentality to maintain. But aren’t wisdom and experience what we are trading our youth for every day?
Tags: lighting, roadie, Sea Island, tour, touring
